7/12/06.

Let You
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One of these days I'll say goodbye && mean what I say.

"Hey, I'm just calling to let you know that I'm blowing myself away."

You're my absolute favorite && I fucking hate that.

I'll pick up the .45 && never look back.

And I'll run so fucking far away that I never cross your mind.

And you can do whatever it takes in your heart to leave me behind.

I already ripped my heart out && threw it at your feet.

So you can't fucking touch me && you will never fucking see how much you fucking mean to me.

You will never fucking see;;

Never see the pain, eating me;;

Never see the insanity rotting in my brain;;

Never see your fucking face that's driving me insane.

Leave me alone;;

To die.

To scream.

To fucking hate you.

But I just know I'll stop dead in my tracks && let you find me.

Let you break me.

Let you buy me.

Let you see inside me.

Let you kill me.

Let you sell me out.

Let you play me.

Let you think me dying is funny.

Let you know me.

Rip apart my rib cage && try to understand.

I just want your company or to hold your fucking hand.

All that I'll ever ask of you is to never tell a lie.

And if I really need to, please, just let me die.

And when I'm scared && lonely, let me be with you.

And don't get scared when all I think about is you.

And late at night while I'm sleeping, please creep into my head && take away my nightmares && fill my dreams of you instead.

And when nobody can find you, please call && tell me where.

And never think about you, I never ever cared.

Because you're my only one && my heart knows only you.

So please tell me that you'll always love me too.